Nothing is the truth

Friday, February 27, 2009

Hey,

This few weeks i really felt very depress. No matter what i try to do, always will cause something to happen. That stuff is still troubling me, i still cant let go of it. I really want to salvage it back like last time. Really feel depress, hurt and pain. Everyone is rejecting me, maybe too much rejection cause me to have this sub conscious effect. Maybe is i going nuts, but really feel that everyone is rejecting and giving up on me. There no one i can turn to anymore. When i need of someone to share my feeling, there no one there. People i treated and always put they in the 1st place, dont put me in the 1st place. They cant even give up something like tv just to have some time for me to talk to them. I really in need of someone to talk to. And the reason is adding more oil to my depress, making me feel that i not even important compare to a tv. Perhape this has make me give up myself. Because even a tv is much more important compare to me, what is the life for me. I dont worthy for anything anymore. I just a thrash worst than a tv or so.

Suspect myself having depression =.=ll
having symptons
- cant focus
- cant speak well anymore
- keep having guilt feeling
- keep having headache

Can anyone tell me izzit symptons correct? or i think too much?

cee-yaa ,10:57 PM

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