Nothing is the truth

Friday, January 4, 2008

Hey,

Brand new year brand new start.
To me a brand new sadness.
Just the 4 day of the new year, had cry more than 4 times.

Life had no meaning to me anymore.
Cheat, lie, scold, love, hate, anger, happy, sad
to me all the emotions is noting to me anymore.
Hurt deeply into my heart, cant seem to recover from it.
I let my ncos/cadet leader down,
i let the most important thing to leak out from my mouth
when it not the time to say.
Disappointed to myself.
I am beyond hope le, giving up of myself.

Changing myself after this ting,
Trying to be more quiet, more mature.
Less talk more work.
Less fun more serious.
Begin less cheerful, more depress.
More depress --> More study
haiz able to consult ppl to be more happy,
but cant consult myself to be more happy.

Even if she nvr tell me the reasons i also will tell her 1.
When she ask me abt tat ting, i confirm i will let my ncos down le.
at the very begining i planning tell her le.
No matter wat she do,
i will not change my view of her.
But it jus hurt, and sad.
cant trust anyone le.

However, dont know why.
i still love her
T.T
tis make me more miserable and sad
no matter wat
i will still respect her last decision.

Campcraft change to tuesday( Not Confirm )

cee-yaa ,7:10 PM

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