a cup of tea ;
with you at a private room ;
is nothing more i hoping for.
Together with you ;
i will be the happiest person in the world
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Hey,
New goal i aiming now. One by one frm the sec 4 to the sec 1, All will result in the same way. Starting frm the sec 4 n 3 today, Manage to get most them to wat i aim for. Soon all will get wat i aim, Then i dont come NP. Soon very very soon, the date tat all will get will be before the annual camp Aiming it, sure get it.
Today done something tat i regret doing. Even is not my fault, i still feel guilty. Heart is like been stab when i saw tat scene I am such a failure for the guy, I throw the face of a guy. Did something tat i tink all guy should not do 1. T.T
STRESS DAY TMR IS THE DAY PASS OR FAIL DONT DROP OR DROP 7 or 6 subject
cee-yaa ,7:14 PM
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Saturday, January 19, 2008
Hey,
Today early morning at 7++ went to ngee ann poly for the D.A.R.T competition. Even thought we never won any prize, it was a good experince for us. Rush back to School for the CCA fair, spend $7.80 sia for the cab .... It time for performance, all thing went smooth. A job well done for all. After all performance, and visiting by the sec 1. Mr Tan treat us pizza, wakakaxx I never eat the pizza only drink the pepsi. My watch lose le, less than 4 month only.... get hell scolding from my parent.
What i think now is that, NPCC still will be good without me. The example is today, without me is much more better. Everytime feel left out, dont know y got this kind of feeling. Thing make me more depress is the ending of my day. The thing happen when i come out from the bus. Jus feel that, every single one will have a better life when i not around ruining your life. Alone alone alone alone --> a very good word
cee-yaa ,6:39 PM
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Monday, January 14, 2008
Hey,
Suddenly in my whole NPCC life i felt without me, NPCC is much a better place for my sec 3 and 2. They enjoy and learn more when i am not around. Maybe i should pass out eariler than my other NCOS/CADET LEADER.
nothing to update sianzzz life ....
upload a video make by nadhir when we go HRC hahaxx
cee-yaa ,9:37 PM
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Saturday, January 12, 2008
Hey,
Just come back from ATF or HRC. It had been a long day, from 7a.m to 5p.m had been playing high element. Reach NPCC campsite at abt 8.30am. We take the van in again, instead of walking in. Had a short brefiting by the Camp Warden. The way he speak was funny. Keeping saying about the guys brother. 1st thing we started on was tunnel. It was the same as last year atc. But it still quite fun.
The next element we played perhers the most popular element among all. The Double Flying Fox. Height of 31m if i not wrong. Went down with zijie. It just took us about 1 min to go down. Compare to 5 to 6 min of walking up to the Flying Fox.
Had Lunch at Muti pupose hall. After lunch, we went to play the Pamper Pole. Is a station when, 1 by 1 take turn to play. The element is about going all the way up to the top of the Pole, which is 7 metre high. Follow by leaping for the trapeze bar which is quite far in front of the pole.
Carry on to the Advanced Challenge Course (ACC). Play until my finger get cut. 2 of my left hand de finger get cut. Blood keep on coming out. Because of that, i cant complete the ACC. It seem that today is a bad day. Get cut + halfway of the course rain. i had no strength to go back because of the stupid cut. Luckily the C.I come and pull me back.
After all that, reach home at 6++.
cee-yaa ,7:03 PM
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Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Hey,
School stress like hell. Get back my English homework, i can see my hard work had paid off. My mark beginning to improve slowly. From mark like 8/30 to 10/30 to 12/30. Soon i will have my mark reach 15/30.
Stress up in CCA and Studies. In term of relationship, more worst. All 3 add up, i going to siao le. Only based on relationship i can go nuts. Even thought of that, i will still hope for the best to come, not the worst. haiz
Today have lesson until 1.20 the same thing. Luckily for my Science Class, we had no extra lesson Had Campcraft training until 6. Finally had the idea of the shelter. Treat 2 cadets bubble tea.
Thank Kim hong & Safurah for the Wallet. Thank Angella & Kai Jun for the Pencil box.
cee-yaa ,8:11 PM
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Sunday, January 6, 2008
Hey,
Done by Hema, Yuting, Peiling, Zihui, Hui Yi.
(if i miss out anyone pls inform me)
Wake up early morning at 8++, went for a jog at jurong lake park to chinese garden to japanese garden. Then walk back home ^^. No energy to jog back le.
Went out at 11a.m to bus stop. Wait for more than 1hr... I aboard bus at around 12++. Reach JE interchange at 1p.m++ I so damn late, the meeting is 11.15 then i reach at 1++. so guilty
Eat lunch with pei ling, yu ting, hui yi at long john silver. After that went up to library to do the NPCC banner.
Went back home around 5++.
cee-yaa ,6:36 PM
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Saturday, January 5, 2008
Hey,
Noting to update Sianzz life Doing Homework and studying whole day.
cee-yaa ,9:37 PM
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Friday, January 4, 2008
Hey,
Brand new year brand new start. To me a brand new sadness. Just the 4 day of the new year, had cry more than 4 times.
Life had no meaning to me anymore. Cheat, lie, scold, love, hate, anger, happy, sad to me all the emotions is noting to me anymore. Hurt deeply into my heart, cant seem to recover from it. I let my ncos/cadet leader down, i let the most important thing to leak out from my mouth when it not the time to say. Disappointed to myself. I am beyond hope le, giving up of myself.
Changing myself after this ting, Trying to be more quiet, more mature. Less talk more work. Less fun more serious. Begin less cheerful, more depress. More depress --> More study haiz able to consult ppl to be more happy, but cant consult myself to be more happy.
Even if she nvr tell me the reasons i also will tell her 1. When she ask me abt tat ting, i confirm i will let my ncos down le. at the very begining i planning tell her le. No matter wat she do, i will not change my view of her. But it jus hurt, and sad. cant trust anyone le.
However, dont know why. i still love her T.T tis make me more miserable and sad no matter wat i will still respect her last decision.
Campcraft change to tuesday( Not Confirm )
cee-yaa ,7:10 PM
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Thursday, January 3, 2008
Hey,
Just found out the REASONs Very sad n disappointed at myself Just because of someting i say when i does not really mean it. ME and MY STUPID MOUTH. i dont wan u to change. I wan u to be the same old person i know u. T.T
