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Saturday, October 20, 2007

Hey,

This few days is totally very stress for me
I had break down a few time during tis few day
From the begining of the year, trying to cope up with pure science
in the end i will drop to combine science
all the effort n hardwork i put in are wasted
all the hardwork i put in doesnt seem to work
and for english i trying to get my english to pass
i try so hard and i put in so much effort
in the end i still fail my english in EYE
i have been asking myself should i just give up
and dont care anyting
Lot of tings have been stressing me up
With my english failing now,
i cant imagine how can pass my "O" level english
totally stress up tat i cant seem to tink carefully and well
with alot of other ting
With the discourage word instead of encourage word from my family
my life seem to have no future ahead
With a life without future, i tink so much for noting
my heart is in pain wit the stress

The feeling is making me to break down infront of my family
sometime i just want to break down infront of them
luckly i never do it
Trying to control tat feeling inside me
Nowdays if u c me without mood
try not to make me sad or angry
i will jus lose control of my feeling easily le
sry for wat i will say n do

cee-yaa ,8:50 PM

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Hey,

Down with a Fever after yesterday npcc training

Mostly likely is because i walk under the rain frm lakeside mrt station to sch without any shelter.
Just went out and see a doctor le, have been going to the doctor alot of time recently.
Sian sian at home, slp all the way then eat then slp again.

cee-yaa ,6:23 PM

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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Hey,

Boring Day at home
All i do was slp, play ps2 and eat only
nothing else i do sia
Damn boring sia T.T

Happy 15th Birthday to Zijie

Today i feel very disappointed at someone sia
make me lose all the trust on u le
sobsob T.T

cee-yaa ,9:27 PM

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Hey,

YEAHH!! Today the last test for EYE hahax
So happy when the teacher collect the paper hehexx.
Become very hyper n happy after the last test.
But gd ting end very quick.
Recieve bad news on tat day.
Been asked to check physic paper.
Only 3 to 5 or 6 ppl pass overall.
I fail my overall by 2mark omg!!!
Went back home after tat n have a nap.
Went out at 3++ then come back at 5++.
Continue my miserable life at home wit my trustly ps2 & psp.
Blogging here and soon i going to end my day wit a nite rest.

cee-yaa ,9:45 PM

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Sunday, October 14, 2007

Hey,

Some Photo i take during the trip heheXXX

Finally back in singapore le

surely no 1 miss me 1 X.X

Reach genting at 3a.m dont need slp le because slp during the car trip to tere
check in then play poker wit mom n sis hehexx. Play for 1 or 2 hr le, dad come back frm casino le, so went back to my & sis room. I watch dvd until slp X.x. Went for breakfast at 9++a.m. Eaten dim sum for breakfast. Follow by tat is shopping and some playing of ride n games. Soon is time for lunch hehexx, eat kenny roger roaster. After tat went shopping again lolxx. Shop until sian le then go back hotel slp Zzzzz. Abt 7pm went out for dinner which is zi cha. Once again, went to shopping after my dinner. Went back hotel and play poker again hahaxx. At 11++p.m suddenly got boom boom loud sound, went out n c. Shocking to c fireworks hehexx so nice sia. It much more nicer than the fireworks during national day. Went to slp after tat. The next day wake up at 8++, went for breadfast at marybrown. Check out after breadfast. Went back to singapore straight. Reach singapore around 5++. Went back home and take a bath, next to it was going out for dinner. Dinner was steamboat, the fish they give so many, eat until my stomach is bloating le. Straight home after dinner. Blogging here. Going to study over the night le or else die le tmr

cee-yaa ,5:07 PM

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Friday, October 12, 2007

Hey,

7 more hour to go

Do NOT call me or sms from today 8pm on to Sunday night

Going genting

once again, i am back here blogging.
Today the 2nd last paper
Do until my brain cell all going to die le
Went back home at 10++
Went out again at 11++
Come back at 1++
LOLXX go out for a while only ...
my parent siao sia bring family go GENTING again
Somemore i still got exam at tue sia
Nvm can left Singapore and sort out some tinking
Currently wait for my sis to come home
then can go le X.X

MOOD now = not so gd ++ a bit angry and sad

cee-yaa ,1:55 PM

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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Hey,

Going To fail my physic and chemistry

Life In Sec 3 was so stress and boring

So many sad ting happening in sec 3

Next year confirm go combine science le

Damn sad when i get back my test paper

Math n geography still ok

Tmr having Amath another subject i scare

End here le i go studying again

cee-yaa ,4:02 PM

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Sunday, October 7, 2007

Hey,

CANT SLP IS A TORTURE

SEEING TAT TING MAKE MY MIND TINK

WILD, WILL NOT GO FACE TAT

DIRECTION LE

Make my heart fan until cant slp

OMG last night i suffering from Insomnia sia
Kana fan by someting tat my mind keep tinking
even thought dont wish to tink still go tink
Cant slp T.T luckly my mom n sis havent slp oso
play trumbling tower and poker wit them until 3a.m
When time to slp, i cant slp sia
Twist n turn for more than 1hr ++
1st time have nightmare tat make me sweat even having the air con on
Nightmare so scary sia
abt the ting tat i tinking happen
somemore they very intimate in the NIGHTMARE
i sure break down 1 if tat really happen
slp around 4a.m i tink
then wake up at 8.20a.m
kana wake up by another NIGHTMARE
my mind cant stop tinking even i do not wan to tink
cant go back to slp le so come here n blog

cee-yaa ,8:28 AM

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Saturday, October 6, 2007

Hey,

Limited edition

Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII PSP

Star Wars Battlefront: Renegade Squadron

Limited Edition PSP

Both the limited Edition new Slim PSP so nice compare to my Big PSP

Trying to Ask my parent to buy the Star War Limited Edition 1 hahaxx

But dont tink can my result going die le somemore i got 2 Big PSP le

Surely they will not buy for me

cee-yaa ,9:23 PM

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