Friday, February 27, 2009
Hey,
This few weeks i really felt very depress. No matter what i try to do, always will cause something to happen. That stuff is still troubling me, i still cant let go of it. I really want to salvage it back like last time. Really feel depress, hurt and pain. Everyone is rejecting me, maybe too much rejection cause me to have this sub conscious effect. Maybe is i going nuts, but really feel that everyone is rejecting and giving up on me. There no one i can turn to anymore. When i need of someone to share my feeling, there no one there. People i treated and always put they in the 1st place, dont put me in the 1st place. They cant even give up something like tv just to have some time for me to talk to them. I really in need of someone to talk to. And the reason is adding more oil to my depress, making me feel that i not even important compare to a tv. Perhape this has make me give up myself. Because even a tv is much more important compare to me, what is the life for me. I dont worthy for anything anymore. I just a thrash worst than a tv or so.
Suspect myself having depression =.=ll
having symptons
- cant focus
- cant speak well anymore
- keep having guilt feeling
- keep having headache
Can anyone tell me izzit symptons correct? or i think too much?
cee-yaa ,10:57 PM
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Saturday, February 21, 2009
Hey,
He's Just Not That Into You
just catch this movie yesterday at west mall with my colleague.
Is a funny movie haha, and it should be rated as NC16 instead ^^
cee-yaa ,5:59 PM
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Friday, February 20, 2009
Hey,
Tag reply :
Zihui --> updated ^.^ and relink you + . +
Fizah --> haha next friday i confirm can go back ^^ maybe will treat you hehehe as your present
Huiqin --> woo thanks ^ . ^ shocking to see you drop by my blog heehee
s
suhaidi --> thanks i forget is what theme. i think is lonely instead of emo haha
cee-yaa ,10:51 PM
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Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Hey,
back to blogging once again. ~~ as nothing better to do
Change a blogskin, a new beginning a whole new start. There nothing much happening in my life. It just the same thing going to work then going back home. Soon at feb 25, my contract will end. My employer ask whether i wish to extend, but i decline the offer because of this work, someone told me cant go out is because of it. So i decided to quit as fast as i can. Nothing much to blog this few days. Perhaps i just blog about my O levels result as well as where and which course i will be going for my another 3 year. One more thing, i had a shock when i get my result. Miracle do happen in life, my English grade had improved from a C6 to a B3 wooo. Friends who know me will find hard to believe it. hehex.
O level result:
L1R4 --> 11 ( 9 after minus 2 because of cca A1)
L1R5 --> 15 ( 13 )
Posting of JAE:
1st choice get accepted.
Aerospace technology at ngee ann poly
cee-yaa ,7:27 PM
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Monday, January 12, 2009
Hey,
i will not make my problems be other people problems.
burden is meant to be carry by ourselves, not meant to be share.
Thing is going down the hill. Everyone is having great time after o levels. For me the greatest time i have is during o levels and before amath paper. Everything had changed on that day.
**If i did not ...
**If i know how she feel
**If i try to understand her that moment
**If i comfort her instead of .... when she was in stress
Doing something to wrap up the whole topic.
Soon it will end, no matter is good or bad news, at least it ended. No more dragging.
cee-yaa ,8:42 AM
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Thursday, December 25, 2008
Hey,
Merry Christmas
Santa i want her in my sock .....
How i hope all this was a dream a nightmare, hoping once i wake up everything will be back as last time or even better. But reality is something we cant change. Once i open my eyes, thing is still the same, the dream carry on. what can i do anymore? what am i suppose to do? my heart just cant let go. I hoping impossible is nothing but reality and facts are telling otherwise.
What i do now is wrong, izzit once wrong, forever what i do is wrong onward?
~~~
Nothing to blog about anymore, this blog is rotting as well. Maybe i will close down the blog.
cee-yaa ,12:21 AM
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Monday, December 15, 2008
Hey,
Tag reply :
shahirah --> sorry for the late tag reply hahax receive your wishes in face book ^^ thanks alot. yup i working now. Only free after 5 on weekday, 1230 at sat, sunday whole day free ^.^
boi --> yupyup. but nowadays seem to have no time to exercise, the weather also so bad.
ahwei --> i also like this song alot. haha
huiqin --> thanks ^^ thank for both the tag as well as the wishes : ) link you as well ^^
cee-yaa ,10:57 PM
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Sunday, December 7, 2008
Hey,
Updated my wishlist ^^
i really want the 1st thing in the wishlist.
That will be my greatest present and gift for the whole year. ~~
cee-yaa ,8:48 PM
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Saturday, November 29, 2008
Hey,
wow leave was approved for 4th dec and 17th dec. Yeah dont need work during my birthday. but have no plan on that day.... Confirm can go for class chalet ^^ i going to have panda eyes!! Straight away from chalet going to work on 5th dec early morning. i going to X.X ~~
I become fatter !! i put on weight !! everyday eat lunch that why haha.
See everyone soon during class chalet.
cee-yaa ,1:18 PM
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Friday, November 28, 2008
Hey,
Today i saw mrs grewal at my working place O . o
she come forward to me and say hi. So shock, so coincidence to see her here. She seem to buy medicine only and did not see doctor. She ask me funny question hahax. so so so funny, my working friend also laughing away hahax.
cee-yaa ,10:17 PM
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Hey,
Thing happen all in the same time, coincidence ...
Deeply in hurt, vision is blur. mood = -999999 i dont know what to do. breaking down any second and any where. I always treated no important. ALWAYS. I hate those feeling, those treatment. Is too hurting. heart bleeding. i just keep getting reject for everything. But why other people ask, will not reject? why why? why i am the one who always been sacrifice for other people purpose? why? why no one will sacrifice for me instead? Perhaps i have no place, no influence, not as important as other people.
Sorry what i saying here, is just my current feeling. i really need to release out.
cee-yaa ,10:07 PM
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Monday, November 24, 2008
Hey,
this will always engrave inside my heart. I will always regret why i did those thing, and ashame of myself why i cant have the courage to do something. Time pass, feeling fade away... however my feeling is still the same. Some how not for the her. Nothing i can do now, what i do is to wait and endure the different and changes.
cee-yaa ,9:16 PM
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Hey,
tag reply
boi --> something haha. something miracle to happen.
ahwei --> hope can meet up at class chalet hahax.
Aka --> thank for your tag ^^
hidayah --> so scary when fainted suddenly cant see anything or hear anything
Ron --> wan come visit me izzit?
cee-yaa ,9:09 PM
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
Hey,
Tired .........Both physical and mental.
But i will still endure ......
Waiting for a miracle.
cee-yaa ,8:23 PM
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Hey,
Tag reply:
Zihui --> relink le. Thank for the tag.
♥.kimhong --> welcome. got got keep coughing .... nvm ba if you don't go see doc.
cee-yaa ,8:21 PM
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